Back on Track

I apologize to the few who read this for the bizarre and passive-agressive post I wrote last time. It's been a highly emotional move, but here I am, reporting from Boston, snuggled in bed with a billion stuffed animals and pillows, and trying to sort out everything I have to do to prepare for life here. I think that although the place isn't really what I wanted, it will turn out to be homey once I've unpacked. To those of you not here with me, come and visit often. I'd say we could fit about eighteen more people in here for a night or two. ;)

Signing off with love and optimism,
Little Miss Somerville

I Can't Sleep

It's raining. I can't sleep. I stare at the ceiling, or at Alex, or at the bare walls of my room, or the piles of boxes everywhere, all instead of sleeping. I'm not sure if I can even describe how I feel. Cornered. Trapped into doing so many things that I don't want to do. Trapped into a situation that I don't like, with no way to get out. I feel alone, even though I'm ostensibly not. I spent a lot of this evening looking online for part-time jobs, to fill up my days, make me too busy to think about anything at all. I wonder how many I can juggle at once? Three? Four? We'll see if they get back to me in the morning.

I wish...I wish I knew what to do. I wish I knew how to get what I want out of what I seem to have. I wish I knew how to ask for what I want, and not give in. I wish I knew how to be happy, enjoy my last moments of so many things, but when it comes down to the wire, I find that very difficult. If I get all the sad over with when everyone else is sleeping, I'm not missing out on anything, I guess. I want to be held, told I am loved, told I will be missed. I want to be worth waiting for, or trying for. I wish I knew where my home was.

And now, time for a maudlin song lyric break!

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

It's Hailing

After realizing that we have experienced several plagues today, including hail, locusts, and toads, and following this idea to the inevitable conclusion that three of the four of us were the firstborn and would thus be killed:


Becky: We need a lamb, where's the lamb?
Charlotte: We have a pork chop....
Becky: We can't use a pork chop, that's sacreligious!

Procrastinating Because I Hate Everything.

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone
whats your name spelt backwards?:	lehcar nna grebhcoh
What did you do last night?:	played Adventure Quest, watched Arrested Development, did no packing whatsoever, had a bout of insomnia, and slept poorly.
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?:	A job application.
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?:	No.
Last time you swam in a pool?:	The family ipicnic, back in July. My ear has never recovered.
What are you wearing?:	Dacschund pj pants and a BMC shirt.
How many cars have you owned?:	Several of the toy variety.
Type of music you dislike most?:	Some of the weird stuff Nathaniel listens to.
Are you registered to vote?:	Yes.
Do you have cable?:	No.
What kind of computer do you use?:	Mostly, a Toshiba laptop.
Ever made a prank phone call?:	Yes.
You like anyone right now?:	Duh.
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:	Perhaps.
Furthest place you ever traveled?:	Prague.
What's your favorite comic strip?:	Sinfest.
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?:	Yes.
Shower, morning or night?:	Morning, for my hair. Night if I have nowhere to be the next day.
Best movie you've seen in the past month?:	Pirates 2!
Favorite pizza toppings?:	Pepperoni, mushrooms, broccoli, not necessarily together.
Chips or popcorn?:	Chips.
What cell phone provider do you have?:	Tmobile.
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:	Nope. Though Alex looked up the effects of this, out of curiosity.
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:	No, only in Monopoly.
Orange Juice or apple?:	Apple for me, orange for Frank.
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?:	My parents and Alex at the Ren Faire.
favorite chocolate bar?:	Hershey's Special Dark.
Who is your longest friend and how long?:	Kristine Seipel, 19 years.
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:	In high school, I'd bet.
Have you ever won a trophy?:	The Lamp of Learning. Ha!
Favorite arcade game?:	Skee-ball or pinball.
Ever ordered from an infomercial?:	Yes, sadly.
Sprite or 7-UP?:	Either, but I'll often choose 7-Up because I like the spot.
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?:	Not that I recall.
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?:	I've never bought anything at Walgreens.
Ever thrown up in public?:	Sort of. In a car with friends and a friend's parents.
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:	True love. What a dumb question.
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	Maybe. I'm not sure.
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?:	Spongebob, not all caps.
Did you have long hair as a young kid?:	No, it was short and permed.
What message is on your voicemail machine?:	Um....something generic.
Where would you like to go right now?:	To sleep. Not alone.
Whats the name of your pet?:	Longfellow.
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?:	Backpacks used to be so important....now I have a yellow bag thing that has painting clothes and speakers and my purse in it.
What do you think about most?:	Right now? Money, packing, distance, heartache. The feeling of being trapped. Not necessarily in that order.
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Reenactment of My Sinfest Reading Experience

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Alex: What are you laughing at?
Me: Sinfest, have you read it today?
Alex: Yeah. We have many moments like that.



Indeed, we do have many moments like that.

Tatsuya Told the Future

How did he know it would happen exactly this way?

Queen of Chug

If you ever ate lunch with me in high school, you'll remember those miniscule bottles of milk we always got, from Rosenberger's Dairy. Their chocolate milk was (and still is) the best chocolate milk I've ever tasted. Back in the day, I was known for chugging those little bottles, all at once, at high speed. I can't remember anymore what my record was, but it was pretty fast, for a teenage girl.

Today, I went to CVS to pick up a few random things, and as I passed the cold beverages I thought "I should get more milk, we always run out of milk." I perused the choices: all Rosenberger's! Delighted at the far reach of my favorite dairy, I grabbed a gallon of milk. Then I noticed something spectacular, amazing, wonderful! They had single serving bottles of Rosenberger's chocolate milk!! And not the tiny kind we got in school, either. I bought one, and went outside to the front steps of the store to sit down and drink it. No, not drink it--chug it. 16 fluid ounces in under seven seconds, baby! I've still got the magic. Oh yeah.

I See Two Snoopies