Time Flies.
December looms o'er
me, full of traditions; they
mark time, reminding
me how much has changed.
Time flies on faster wings than
I can keep up with.
December looms o'er
1. Initials
I dreamed last night that Alex and I were in Mexico.... At first I think I was supposed to be living there, and I was showing Alex how close my house was, and how I could bike to her house from there, but after that bit it was clear that I was just vacationing. There was some confusion with Alex's house though, her mom had bought some kind of store, but the woman who sold it to her was actually only selling her an empty building, not the business, so she took away all the stock, and that was a problem. But then we started walking to the house, and it didn't look like Ajijic, but it did look like Mexico at least... And I kept looking at bathing suits along the way, because I wanted to go swimming in the pool, but for some reason I hadn't brought a suit. I didn't buy one, though, because I had no money (clearly my real life invading the dream, there). I thought of skinny dipping, but then we stopped off somewhere and invited some American guys home for dinner, and there went that idea! I don't know who the boys were, or why they were there really. Then suddenly Alex's sister was there, in the same way that Dawn just appeared on Buffy even though Buffy had never had a sister before, and the sister and Alex's mom were going to make us dinner so that we could go and have fun before we ate. So we took a walk, and we were very serious, rather than having fun, just sort of walking and talking, and then we sat down under a tree with one of the guys, and for some reason I knew that the guy was dating Alex, and I remember admitting that I was sad that she'd brought him there, because I wanted Mexico to be my place, and not just where she brought everybody she dated...which we then laughed about, because she lives there now. But then I realized that I wasn't talking to Alex anymore, it was Becky, and the guy was Becky's boyfriend (sorry Charlotte...lol). I suddenly knew that I'd been talking to Becky this whole time, and I was like, where did Alex wander off to? So I went off to find her, and finally did, and then we went inside to dinner, and by then it was just Alex and I and the two American guys, who didn't seem to be anyone's boyfriends anymore. I went to alert all the pets that it was dinnertime, and there were way more cats than there should have been, but they were all cute...and for some reason the dogs weren't there. Then we all sat down to dinner, but Alex's mom and sister weren't there anymore, and their chairs were gone, so we decided that they had already eaten, and were trying to set us up with the boys. Then my alarm went off.
1. Eggnog or Hot Chocolate? Hmmm.... I think I'd have to say Eggnog.
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Basics | |
What do you prefer to be called?: | Rachel or Rach, depending on who's doing the calling. |
When were you born and where?: | 11:06 am, 5/18/82, Plainfield NJ. |
Where do you currently reside?: | Somerville MA. |
Getting to know you | |
What could you eat for the rest of your life?: | Chinese food, Thanksgiving turkey, and pizza! |
Where is your favorite place to visit locally?: | So far, the TOMB. |
What is your favorite place to visit for a vacation?: | Europe was lovely. I'd like to vacation in London. |
What is your preference: AIM, MSN, Yahoo!, etc.?: | AIM. |
If you could magically appear in full costume in a movie, which would it be: | Hahaha...for the pure fun of the costume, and because I'm a total dork, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Either that or Pirates of the Caribbean. |
Which role would you play?: | For TMNT, one of the turtles. It would be such a total waste to be in that movie and play April, or a random ninja. In Pirates, some kind of sexy girl pirate. |
What is your favorite accessory?: | Currently, my watch, with watchbands you can change so it matches what you're wearing. |
What is your dream career?: | Currently I'm dreaming of writing, painting and crafting. With proffessorship on the side, so I can eat. |
Which country would you live in if you had the choice?: | Perhaps England. |
Do you believe in the Loch Ness Monster?: | Of course. I watched a whole show about it in California, lol... |
How about ouija boards?: | Yes, though they often don't work for real. |
Which would you rather be stuck in? | |
Winter blizzard or summer heat/humidity?: | Blizzard, all the way! |
Hurricane or Earthquake?: | Hmm.... hurricane, maybe? But I've never experienced an earthquake. |
An opera or a football game?: | Opera, for sure. |
A closet or an elevator?: | A closet. |
a railroad track with an oncoming train or hanging from a carnival ride?: | Eek! Um.... hanging from a ride, I think. |
A fight between friends or a room filled with scary spiders?: | Scary spiders, for sure. |
Randoms | |
Who are you jealous of and for what reason?: | Oh, all right, I can be mostly honest. Alex, for musical ability, apparently universal sex appeal, the sort of worldliness that always made me feel frumpy and foolish, and red hair; Becky, for intellectual capability, incredible capacity for love, and sense of justice; Katie, for independence, manifested most clearly in the owning and driving of a car; anyone in a relationship, because I miss lots of things about that; my parents, for having the money to eat out a lot; Thomas, for having really low rent and living in the same neighborhood that I do. |
which type of salad dressing do you prefer?: | Parmesean Peppercorn or Creamy Caesar. Or sometimes Ranch. |
Can you eat with chopsticks?: | Since I was 5, and with great success. I'm very proud. |
...Are you addicted to myspace? Tell the truth.: | Not at all, actually. I only went there once, I think. |
In the Opposite sex (or same if you are gay) | |
What is your favorite eye color?: | I like eyes with character, regardless of color. But if I had to choose, I'd say green or light blue. |
What is the first thing you notice when you are attracted to him?: | Okay, starting here, let's all mentally change the pronouns to female. I notice that I stare, or that I start thinking about the person at random moments. |
Do you like light, sparkling hair or smooth, dark hair?: | I often prefer light hair to dark, but it's not a strong preference. And I'm not sure how sparkling hair works... |
Any preferred height?: | It seems that I tend to be attracted to women approximately my own height, or a little shorter. |
What is one thing he could say that would make you melt?: | Probably "I love you," sincerely meant, would be enough. I melt easily. |
What is the most romantic scenerio you can think of?: | The only things coming to mind are things that already happened, and I'm not sure if that counts... |
Do you need a ring, if he were to propose?: | I think yes, but it wouldn't have to be an expensive ring. Plastic would do, if the sentiment was there. |
Are you crushing on anyone in particular?: | There was an attractive girl at the party I went to last weekend, but I was really drunk and she seemed pretty uninterested. Not that I talked to her, or anything, lol. Other than that, I haven't found a new avenue for my affections. |
If not, who is the closest thing to *drool* you can think of?: | Regina Spektor. Oh yeah. |
Fashion expression | |
What is your favorite color to wear?: | Hmm.... I'm really not sure. I think I wear blue the most often, if that says anything. I've been wearing lots of purple lately, too. |
Is there an article of clothing you wear every day?: | Like, a specific one? My robe. |
What brings out the color of your eyes?: | This pale blue/green long sleeved shirt that I wore today. I noticed in the mirror that it really made my eyes stand out. |
Are your nails painted? If so, what color?: | No, I gave up on that long ago. |
What would you call your style?: | Hmm... colorful, usually relatively modest, sometimes a little dykey but sometimes pretty femme. |
What is your frequent shop? (department store): | Old Navy, H&M, Target. |
Is your hair short or long?: | Short, though it's growing pretty rapidly. I may actually let it go this time. |
Is it your natural color?: | By now I think it is. I dyed it darker a while ago, but that's all grown out. |
Do you prefer to be tan or pale?: | I like to be tan, but not enough to work at it in any way. |
Friends | |
Do you get very personal with your friends?: | Yes, usually. |
Are you friends with two or more different 'groups'?: | Yes, I guess so, but all the closest friends are pretty much the same group. |
Who is most simliar to you?: | Huh...my first instinct is Becky, because we spend so much time together that we've rubbed off. |
Who is most opposite?: | That's a tough one. I'm not sure I know the answer. I can see similarities between myself and all of my friends. |
Who do you suppose will take this survey after you?: | Probably Becky and Katie...maybe Alex...possibly Maddie. I'm never sure where things will end up when I'm the first one to post them. |
Finale | |
What time is it?: | 1:11 am. |
I hope you enjoyed the survey. | |
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I'm feeling strangely...outside of my life. I'm laying in my childhood bed, in my childhood room, mostly unchanged since I began to occupy it at the age of six. I'm reading about the life of Beverly Cleary, and thinking about my own life. I'm listening to music that used to sing me to sleep every night, and now mostly makes me sad, even though I still like to hear it when the mood is right; I'm full of food, and thinking about my family, and wondering how I got from the girl who slept every night in this pink-and-purple room to the life I am in now. I remember scenes from my life like some sort of movie, a show that I don't quite remember participating in. The last time I slept in this room and actually occupied it, I thought I would grow up to be a famous writer, and that I would marry a man, and that I would live next door to Katie as an old woman and tease her about all our old jokes. I hoped for romance, imagined sex, thought I had a clear understanding of love and heartache, looked forward to beginning college. I somehow thought that nothing would change. And still, things continue to change. My house is full of relics; my old toys, old clothes, old books. Photos of myself everywhere, my parents stopping time for a moment and hanging each moment on the wall. I realized as I was setting the table for dinner that my mother had framed a photo of Alex and I and placed it on a side table; above the table on the wall were photos of Ryan and I at prom, Katie and I at graduation, myself at four riding a rocking horse, wearing nothing but a cowboy hat. My life, all laid out for me to peruse, in random order. And still, I'm not sure how any of it happened, how the journey actually occurred. It's strange to be nearly 25 and staying in my childhood house. It makes me glad I left, and at the same time it makes me want to cry until they promise I never have to go back to an independent life, that I can give it all up and be a child, and feel safe. I thought, looking forward to the holiday, that being at home would be a relief, and in some ways it is, but in some ways not. The house doesn't keep out sadness, or confusion, it's just familiar, and full of more memories than I can hold in my head at once. It's...well, it's interesting, and strange. It's just the kind of thing that I like to write on and on about in a poetic fashion in the middle of the night. ;)
Just taking a breather from the obscene amount of food in our basement right now...and from the heat down there, and the very active children. ;) Happy Thanksgiving, everybody! I hope yours is as good as mine has been so far. I also hope you get to go shopping tomorrow, because I am, YAY! Old Navy, H&M and Target, here I come (with Mom and her credit cards)!!
My ass is bruised. But I have a bike! It has a basket made out of a milk crate that I illegally stole! I covered all the writing on the crate that says "it is illegal to steal this" with duct tape, and decorated the whole thing with ribbons! I'm such a weirdo. Now I just have to get a bunch of rainbow stickers to cover up the ugly splashes of color on the frame, and I'll have a Rachel-tastic dyke bike.
tons of questions that show your in depth side! | |
basics | |
whats your name?: | Rachel |
what do people call you?: | Rachel, Rach, and Beaver calls me Lady. |
where you named after anything?: | No. And the typos in this are atrocious. |
if you were born the oppisite sex what would your name be?: | Kyle (or Bard, if my dad had succeeded) |
do people spell/say your name wrong?: | Yes, they constantly spell it with an extra "a" |
if you could change your name what would you change it to?: | I'm okay with it... But if I was forced to change it, I think I might pick Adeline, my grandma's middle name. Old-fashioned and kind of frumpy, but I like the way it rolls. |
gender?: | Female. That should be clear to anyone reading this blog. |
birthday?: | 5/18/1982 |
age?: | 24 and 1/2, as of Saturday. |
age you act?: | God only knows... |
age you want to be?: | 23 was pretty good. But I think I'm fairly content to stick with the age I'm at. |
height?: | 5'7" |
eye color?: | They have a range, depending on the day...green, hazel, blue, yellow |
happy with it?: | Yes. |
natural hair color?: | Mousy light brown, sometimes with natural highlights. |
happy with it? if not do you dye it?: | It's okay, but I like to dye it. So far I've gone light red/strawberry blonde, dark warm brown, and tweed. Now considering purple, to look like 'Nique. |
righty or lefty?: | Righty, I'm absolutely hopeless with my left. |
family?: | Um... Yes. |
pets?: | Longfellow, who is very far away. Becky and I are also considering getting a pet. |
peircings?: | Just ears, though I took a picture of myself on my new comp that makes it look like I have a stud in my nose. |
tatoos?: | Four so far, more to come. The next one will hopefully be after Christmas. |
love and stuff | |
single?: | Yes. |
who are you with, or who do you want to be with?: | I think I'm going to skip most of this section, actually. |
are you in love?: | skipping |
have you ever been in love, if so how many times?: | skipping |
do you believe in love at first sight?: | tra la la |
is it possible to be faithful to one person for ever?: | just on principle |
do you want to get married?: | hahaha |
do you want to have kids?: | Yes, I think so. |
how many?: | I'm unsure. |
do you believe in divorce?: | Yes? I mean, yes, but it seems like an odd way to phrase the question. |
do you belive in true love?: | Yes. |
do you consider love a mistake?: | No, I don't think so. |
turn-ons?: | women. |
turns-offs?: | men. |
do you think the oppisite sex finds you attractive?: | I hope not. I mean, fine, if they do. That guy at the party on Saturday was nice enough, and happily flaming. |
what is best about the opposite sex?: | They don't attend Bryn Mawr or Simmons, unless they are graduate students. |
what is worst about the oppisite sex?: | Oh, I don't know. I'm not a total man-hater, really. I don't like it when they get grabby in clubs. |
are you a virgin?: | No. |
do you belive you should be in love to have sex?: | I can never quite make up my mind. |
how far have you gone?: | See above, re: virginity. |
how many people have you had sex with?: | See above, re: skipping on principle. |
do other people consider you a slut?: | I highly doubt that. More like a dirty old man. |
right at this moment... | |
where are you?: | On the couch. |
what can you see out your window?: | Mostly darkness, and a streetlight, and some cars. |
are you listening to music?: | No. |
are you lonely or tired?: | Definitely tired. Not entirely lonely. |
use 5 words to decribe how you are feeling:: | tired and not entirely lonely. |
are you talking to anyone online? if so who?: | Nobody. Not that I often talk to anyone online, anyway. |
are you talking to anyone of the phone? if so who?: | No. |
what are you wearing?: | Fuzzy pj pants and my huge BMC sweatshirt. |
what are you doing?: | Taking this quiz..... |
whats on your mousepad?: | I don't have one. |
friends | |
how many true friends do you have?: | It seems petty to count them. |
are you a loner?: | I go back and forth. I have solitary urges that correspond to various kinds of moodiness. |
who is your best friend?: | Becky! |
oldest?: | I always have to think about this, even though I know the answer--Kristine. |
newest?: | Amy Conway beats out Autumn by about a week. |
shyest?: | Kirstin. She also wins 25-iest and most disappearing. |
loudest?: | Hah, I think I also must say Julia. |
smartest?: | This is difficult and not really answerable, because everyone I'm friends with is very smart. Well, not everyone, but many. |
ditziest?: | I could name some folks at work...but I won't. |
funniest?: | Becky wins for making me laugh the most. |
who is the best listener?: | Once again, got to be Becky. |
do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends?: | That depends... but I usually either want to be alone or be with lots of company. I just don't get that option very often. |
who do you wish you were closer to?: | Many people, actually. |
who knows the most about you?: | Becky and Katie and probably Alex, I think it's a three-way tie. |
who knows the least about you?: | This is an interesting question, I'm just coming up with people who aren't actually friends, because they know very little about me. |
who do you trust the most?: | Becky. |
the least?: | I'm a pretty trusting person. |
who do you fight with the most?: | Well, the only people I fight with ever are Becky and Alex. |
who do you talk to online the most?: | Becky, Katie and Alex. I can see where this whole section is going. |
who do you talk to on the phone the most?: | Actually, my mom. |
do you trust others easily?: | See above. |
name one who's arms you feel safe in:: | I think it's just a symptom of lots of changes, but I don't feel very safe anywhere. Not in a dramatic way. Just not safe like I used to feel in my various homes. |
who house were you at last?: | Probably Lilah's? |
who's your second family?: | I usually just refer to them as The Group, with concentrically smaller circles of familyness in it... BMVCOE forever! |
who lives the farthest away?: | At the moment, Alex and Amy Sullivan. |
do you.... | |
smoke?: | No, despite the best efforts of a certain BAD INFLUENCE... ;) |
drink alcohol?: | Yes, and enjoy it. |
do drugs?: | No. |
pray?: | Yes. |
go to church?: | No. Though I probably will over Thanksgiving. Bleah. |
sleep with stuffed animals?: | Yes! A billion! |
take walks in the rain?: | Yes. |
dance in the rain?: | Now and then. |
do any sports? if so which ones?: | I'd like to get back into karate, but I always say that and I never do. |
sleep around?: | No. |
lie a lot?: | Not a lot, really. |
steal?: | Periodically. |
gamble?: | No, not that I can think of... |
have you ever.... | |
kissed a stranger?: | I was about to say no, but that's not entirely true, I've been kissed by strangers. Without wanting to be. Not quite the same, but an interesting factoid. |
slept with a stranger?: | No, thankfully. |
spun until you were so dizzy you couldn't walk?: | Yes! At work! |
screamed so much you lost your voice?: | Not that I can remember. |
laughed so much it was painful?: | Absolutely. |
cried so much it was painful?: | Absolutely. |
gone skinny dipping?: | Absolutely. |
played strip poker?: | I wanted to answer Absolutely, but actually the answer is no. |
had a medical emergency?: | Yes! Attack of the scalding coffee. |
ran away from home?: | I threatened to. |
done something extremely unexpected?: | I'm sure I've done things that people other than me were not expecting. |
slept outside?: | Yes. |
been onstage?: | Yes! |
deep stuff.... | |
whats your biggest fear?: | That somehow life in general will not work out in my favor. Or that I will suddenly be entirely alone. |
what was your weirdest dream?: | Hmm, well, reading Alex's answers reminded me of the dream where I was having a shark baby. |
scariest dream?: | Maybe the one that involved the scary melting head with spider legs that was under my bed. |
do you have a reoccuring dream?: | I dream about toilets and bathrooms a lot...but I haven't had a recurring dream in years. |
what was your best dream?: | Probably a sex dream of some kind. |
what IS your dream?: | To be happy. :) |
do you live in the moment?: | What does that actually mean? I"m not sure I do. |
what you greatest stregth?: | I don't really know. |
whats your greatest weakness?: | Again, I'm not sure. |
do you have a motto you live by?: | Forgiveness is divine, but never pay full price for late pizza. |
if your life were a movie what would it be called?: | Rachel, the Movie. |
do you have any bad habits?: | Many, I'm sure. |
do you have any secrets?: | I was just talking about this with Becky. There are things I don't tell most people, but I don't have many actual secrets. |
are you fake?: | I try not to be. |
what do you want to do in life?: | Be creative. |
are you a daredevil?: | On occasion. |
are you predictable?: | Often. |
do you keep a journal/diary?: | Sporadically; mostly I keep secret boxes. |
if you could change one thing about you would you? what would it be?: | I always think that this is a dumb question. |
if you were someone else, would you be friends with yourself?: | Probably. |
do you think your a good person?: | Essentially. |
do you think your emotionally strong?: | Yes. |
do you regret anything?: | Yes...but not in a totally painful and dramatic way. |
do you think life has been good so far?: | Yes, pretty good. |
what do you like most about you body?: | Eyes and feet. |
least?: | Thighs and nose. |
are you trust worthy?: | Yes. |
are you gullible?: | Yes. |
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MUHLENBERG, Pa. - In April, at an otherwise mundane meeting of the school board here, Brittany Hunsicker, a 16-year-old student at the local high school, stood up and addressed the assembled board members.
"How would you like if your son and daughter had to read this?" Miss Hunsicker asked.
Then she began to recite from "The Buffalo Tree," a novel set in a juvenile detention center and narrated by a tough, 12-year-old boy incarcerated there. What she read was a scene set in a communal shower, where another adolescent boy is sexually aroused.
"I am in the 11th grade," Miss Hunsicker said. "I had to read this junk."
Less than an hour later, by a unanimous vote of the board (two of its nine members were absent) "The Buffalo Tree" was banned, officially excised from the Muhlenberg High School curriculum. By 8:30 the next morning all classroom copies of the book had been collected and stored in a vault in the principal's office. Thus began a still unresolved battle here over the fate of "The Buffalo Tree," a young adult novel by Adam Rapp that was published eight years ago by HarperCollins and has been on the 11th-grade reading list at Muhlenberg High since 2000. Pitting teachers, students and others who say the context of the novel's language makes it appropriate for the classroom against those parents and board members who say context be damned, it is a dispute illustrative of the so-called culture war, which, in spite of its national implications, is fought in almost exclusively local skirmishes. The board was set to meet the evening of June 1 to reconsider its decision.
"We're absolutely middle-American," said Joseph Yarworth, the schools' superintendent for the last nine years. "And we're having an argument over our values."
According to the American Library Association, which asks school districts and libraries to report efforts to ban books - that is, have them removed from shelves or reading lists - they are on the rise again: 547 books were challenged last year, up from 458 in 2003. These aren't record numbers. In the 1990's the appearance of the Harry Potter books, with their themes of witchcraft and wizardry, caused a raft of objections from evangelical Christians.
Judith Krug, director of the library association's office for intellectual freedom, attributed the most recent spike to the empowerment of conservatives in general and to the re-election of President Bush in particular. The same thing happened 25 years ago, she said. "In 1980, we were dealing with an average of 300 or so challenges a year, and then Reagan was elected," she said. "And challenges went to 900 or 1,000 a year."
Muhlenberg is a township of modest homes and 10,000 people or so, a bedroom community for the city of Reading, in the southeastern quadrant of the state. It is conservative politically and almost entirely white, and there are a growing number of evangelical Christians. Miss Hunsicker had just returned from a two-week church mission in Honduras when, encouraged by her mother, she made her public complaint.
But the town is not militantly right wing. It is significant that even the more vociferous opponents of the book did not insist it come off the school library shelves (though thieves apparently took care of that). In fact, on April 14, as soon as Dr. Yarworth discovered that an overzealous underling had had copies of the novel stored in the school vault, he ordered them returned to storage in classrooms so it could still be read by students who sought it out.
"I wanted us to comply with the narrowest possible interpretation of the board's decision," Dr. Yarworth said.
What followed was a period of unusual activism here. Students circulated petitions. Teachers prepared defenses of the book, and their local union prepared a defense of the teacher who had assigned it. Letters on both sides appeared in the local newspaper, The Reading Eagle, which published a number of articles about the dispute. In May a column appeared headlined "The Upside of Censorship," by a regular columnist, John D. Forester Jr., who wrote that after reading only "passages" of "The Buffalo Tree," "I am actually applauding the efforts of parents to have books banished in their school libraries and classrooms." A few days later, an editorial took the opposing view.
On May 4, the school board met for the first time since banning "The Buffalo Tree" and about 200 people attended, 10 times the usual number, Dr. Yarworth said. The president, Mark Nelson, apologized for his vote to ban the book, not because he approved of it in the curriculum - he admitted later he had not read it - but because he felt the decision had been hasty and in violation of the board's policy for book challenges, which says a challenge should first be heard by a committee of teachers and administrators before the issue goes before the board.
Another member, Otto Voit, who had read the novel, responded that the board, as the ultimate authority, was within its rights in removing the book from the curriculum.
Over the next two hours, some of the rhetoric on both sides became inflated. Some declared that dirty words are dirty words, and that with novels like "The Buffalo Tree" being taught it's no wonder American society is going down the tubes. And others, not allowing for the genuine discomfort that some readers of "The Buffalo Tree" feel, invoked the specter of Nazi book-burning.
Several students spoke with more reasonable passion about the value of the novel, and one high school senior, Mary Isamoyer, offered to replace the missing library copies of "The Buffalo Tree" with her own.
"Do not insult our intelligence by keeping this book from us," she said.
Tammy Hahn, a mother of four and perhaps the most outspoken of the book's opponents, responded that the students' view was irrelevant. She was not about to let her daughter take part in a classroom discussion about erections, she said, adding that it amounted to harassment to subject a girl to the smirks and innuendoes of male classmates who would have no sympathy for her discomfort.
"This is not about a child's opinion," she said of the students' defense of the book. "This is about parents."
Afterward, Joan Kochinsky, a board member who had not been at the previous meeting, moved that the ban be rescinded. But wary of making another decision in haste, the board postponed the vote for a week.
On May 11, it met for another tense, well-attended session that lasted until nearly midnight. This time there was much discussion about the particulars of Miss Hunsicker's unhappiness with the book.
School policy allows for alternate reading assignments when a student or a parent objects to a book on religious or moral grounds, but Miss Hunsicker never did that; her mother, Tammy, said she would have made those specific objections if she had known it was necessary. Miss Hunsicker had simply asked for something else to read because she didn't like "The Buffalo Tree," and her teacher, Luana Goldstan, refused.
"No one is more critical of literature than English teachers," Stacia Richmond, a colleague of Ms. Goldstan's, told the board. "Do you really think we as educators choose literature in terms of its titillation? Do you not realize we are battling the same immorality you are?"
Dr. Yarworth then suggested that confusion could be avoided if a more explicit policy for book challenges were given to parents, including a synopsis of all books on the required reading lists. If that were done, he asked, would the board consider rescinding the ban on "The Buffalo Tree"?
An informal poll was taken, and by a 5-to-3 vote the board indicated it was ready to reverse itself. It was unclear how many members had finished "The Buffalo Tree"; at least two had, at least three had not. But the lengthy debate seemed to prepare them to change their minds.
After the meeting, however, Mrs. Hahn said she felt her arguments had been given short shrift, and she met privately with Mr. Nelson, the board president, to push the idea of a rating system for schoolbooks, similar to what the Motion Picture Association of America does for films. And on May 18, the board rejected the English department's new policy for book challenges and asked that Mrs. Hahn's requests be accommodated: that reading lists made available to parents include a ratings system, plot summaries of all assigned books, and the identification of any potentially objectionable content.
Teachers adamantly opposed these strictures, Michael Anthony, chairman of the English department, said, adding that they would undoubtedly result in more frequent challenges. Dr. Yarworth, who is trying to broker a compromise between the board and faculty, said he had already heard a few grumbles about "Of Mice and Men" and "Catcher in the Rye."
In any case, Mr. Anthony said, " 'The Buffalo Tree' isn't coming back anytime soon."
A Tribute to Alex's Finished Paper, And To the Illustrious VM, Written in Her Voice!
I woke this morning
I was hoping that I might be able to not be a wild insomniac during the work week, but it looks like that just isn't in the cards for me tonight. My ipod is out of juice, and despite how tired I was when I was doing homework before bed, as soon as the lights are out and the room is quiet I just can't sleep. My brain goes crazy, thinking about everything there is to think about...all the work I have coming up and how I'm going to divide it so that it all gets done...getting myself a used bike so that I can sleep later in the morning and get lots of exercise riding to school, and how I'm going to decorate said bike if I end up getting one that's an ugly color...how the weeks are flying by so fast, and how I'm not sure I'm ready for this semester to suddenly be almost over...what I'm going to write my final papers on...when I'm going to get a new tattoo and whether I'll wear something at New Years that will show it off...whether riding a bike will make me fit and thin in time for New Years, or at least speed me along the way...angsty things, and nice things, and things that just don't need to be clogging my head right now when I should be sleeping. I wish I knew how to turn my brain off. Is this what it feels like for people who are diagnosed insomniacs? Or do I just have too much on my mind? I'm unsure.
Interesting..... that last poem was about my grandmother, and I thought about posting it to the blog my parents read, but I decided not to. In spite of that, when I went to my mom's blog today, she had also just posted a poem about my grandmother. It's not an anniversary or birthday or anything....just a really interesting coincidence. Though I like to think it isn't a coincidence after all.
I don't precisely know why I am driven
I wrote another
It starts with the clouds of pain
(While watching a video on YouTube of the middle section from If These Walls Could Talk II, subtitled in Spanish)
I had a strange and interesting sex dream last night. I've been having strange and interesting dreams a lot, lately, though this is the first in a while that had any sex in it. I also had a weird not-sex dream when I napped yesterday that involved the Ghost of Tara---I've clearly been reading too much of those alternate reality Buffy novels. Did anyone else have interesting dreams?
I don't really have anything to say, I just felt like... I dunno. Posting about nothing, apparently. I've made and broken lots of different resolutions today, many having to do with my homework and the frequency with which I read things that are not homework...and the frequency with which I read some things at all.... I have cramps and I'm sleepy, and I bet this is confusing and dull for everyone but me. But I get pleasure out of typing. I also have a little smiley guy on my hand. I'd take a picture, but I'm too lazy. I guess I just have nothing to say that's appropriate for a public forum. That's a little sad.
Apologies for the passive-aggressive posts lately. I think right know all I can say is ugh, because my head hurts lots. Time for more Buffy.
Nevermind that Jack-o-Lantern crap. I don't need a metaphor for what I feel like. I feel like shit.
I've been pondering metaphors for how I feel today, and I decided that I feel like a Jack-o-Lantern. Feel free to voice your interpretations.
Thanks for the hugs and blankets. I feel more like a normal human this morning, let's hope it lasts!
....you nearly burst into tears at work because you think you're finally alone in the room and it's okay, and then it turns out there's some dumb blonde girl watching a movie, but she's short, so you couldn't see her from where you're sitting, and then you're embarassed and have to hide behind the computer monitor to wipe your face, but you're glad you didn't actually start sobbing, because she might have heard you, and then she gets up and leaves a minute later and you write about it in your blog. Oh yeah. Must be PMS time again.